Back down to 4.1ml

The palpitations finally stopped yesterday, thank goodness, so I felt able to make a slight reduction in my dosage this morning with no advers effects so far. I have started pouring the liquid into the plastic measuring lid and syringing from that, rather than using a bottle adaptor thingie. It means I get almost no bubbles at all and much greater accuracy than before. And more of the deadly medicine delivered into my system...

Felt so horrible all of last week that I hardly left the house. In addition to my physical symptoms (nasty headache, chest pains, palpitations, restlessness etc), I felt so low I didn't want to engage with anything. I'd been feeling stupidly positive and things had been going so well that I'd forgotten about all the nasty symptoms that might pop up at some point. I don't know whether my mood has improved as a result of increasing my dosage again, because I was going through a grumpy phase and have naturally come out of it or because I ate junk food all weekend and feel full of cheap and nasty happy chemicals. I wonder if you could mask all the withdrawal symptoms by replacing the part of seroxat that stops the serotonin from dying with a cocktail of blue smarties, Haribo star mix and and flying saucers. I always feel better when I've had some chocolate and, thinking about it, I had no chocolate last week for the first time in ages. I may conduct some experiments in this regard...